I recently finished my semester at Bergen Community and I've had some downtime to analyze some aspects of myself. I've felt dissatisfied with certain things which spawned a self improvement kick. As a result, I joined a new gym, started doing yoga with my girlfriend, started drawing more, waking up at 7AM, avoiding sweets, etc.
But you know what I realized last night? I realized that you can't live for self improvement and constant progress. I'm always going to work hard and there are some principles which I stand firmly behind, but the truth is that sometimes it's better to sleep in a bit if you can; or to have a cookie if you want.
I'm still happy to go through self improvement kicks. I learned that I'll be adding yoga to my normal workout program. And I learned that I should be drawing in my downtime more often. I also still keep a diary close at hand. Sometimes I honestly don't feel like going to the gym, but I know I must go for the long term results. It's just hard to balance enjoyment and self improvement.
So what I've realized is that sometimes self improvement is an absolute necessity, but sometimes it can really mess up your own personal happiness.