I finally feel like I found the proper term for how I feel about my own art and life. The term I was looking for is Wabi-sabi, which is the Japanese art of finding beauty in imperfection and profundity in nature, of accepting the natural cycle of growth, decay, and death (transience). I had heard the term before, but I'm discovering that my outlook on life and art relates directly with Wabi-sabi. Before I investigated this, I wrote a blog post relating the idea of the imperfect to the process of signing a painting.
I also feel that the artwork I admire relates strongly to the idea of the imperfect and fleeting moments. Especially the art of Sorolla, whom I still love. And the watercolor paintings of John Singer Sargent have been inspiring my own pursuit of watercolor painting. Watercolor itself as a medium has a lot of ties with Wabi-sabi.
I'm finding a lot of comfort with the idea of finding beauty in the cycle of life, especially with recent events in my life.
This video relates to a lot of the same ideas.